Hey everyone.
Today I'd like to write a post about something a little different. Rather the usual updates on projects I've got going on on my channel. I thought I might take the time to talk about two very special people in my life at the moment.
For those of you who don't know, the two people in this photograph with me are Joel and Mary. How do I know them? I met Mary a year and a half ago as we had started to work together on a play at the time, and we've been very good friends since then. It was through her that I got the privilege to meet her boyfriend Joel. I've known and been friends with Mary for a year and a half now and I've known Joel for just over a year.
Last year, I wrote a post called "My Friend" and if you haven't read that yet, I suggest that you go and read it by following the link provided: http://dan44100.blogspot.com/2017/03/my-friend.html.
Once you've read that post, come back and continue with this post because I think it's important for you to gain an understanding into the background behind how my friendship with Mary became apparent to me, and it will help put things into context.
I have explained in the past, not going into too greater detail, but I have somewhat highlighted and explained a little the importance of my friends and how special they are to me.
It's now the middle of June, we're halfway into this year and at the moment, I feel pretty good in myself in terms of the way I am feeling at the moment in having a relationship with myself and in terms of having a good relationship with friends. Especially seeing as I felt I started off this year not feeling too good about they way I stood with certain people, I felt that I had made crucial mistakes to ruin the friendship or change it slightly or in some ways sabotage it.
In April/ May of this year, I feel I have been distancing myself from people and I during that time, I was spending a lot of time in my room, by myself. I think I had forgotten the feeling of what it's like to go out and have a good night out with my friends and life had just passed me by, life goes on. Despite all the things that you might be going through, regardless of how good or bad they are.
At the same time, I contradict myself because I enjoy the Me time, I like my space. It's very hard for me to find the correct balance between going out and having time out for myself and maintain a healthy balance between my social life and my private life. And I feel like I have two different personalities, I have my social personality and I have my private personality, and I think it's imperative that those two personalities never co-inside or meet with each other.
And I'm only just starting to get back into the swing of reinstating myself and catching up with people whom due to recent circumstances I haven't seen very much of and haven't spoken to for a long while, and it's been lovely to do that. That as a feeling has been really good and it has put me in brighter spirits.
The two people I am going to address in this blog, you can guess from the title, I think they're both amazing people and they make me happy in ways I never thought I could feel.
I like Joel for the reasons that I think he is a very inspirational guy in many ways, particularly in what he does or what he had done in his life. He's completely non-judgemental, very easy going and polite. He comes across as a perfect all-rounder, you like to be in his company and you want to be in his company because of that. I've had quite a few long, honest conversations with Joel and one finds that after having those types of conversations you tend to get to know someone pretty well by doing that.
Mary's a friend, a good friend. She helped me when I was going through a tough time. Since then I have felt she's always been one of my main friends, and someone who is special to me. I do feel particularly close to her. I think all of that is due to the fact that she's gone out of her way to help me in moments when I've felt I needed her and because she wanted to. I think without her help, I don't think I would have been able to come to the right conclusions and resolved the situations I've found myself in. She's been very sincere and kind to me.
Something else that she has done along with two other people over the course of last year which no other friend has done for me before is she has changed me a little. I feel like I have changed for the better having come to know her and two others of my friends who I feel close to also. I do like having a small group of main friends who I can hang around with. It's all come as a bit of a shock to me as this was something I never expected in a hundred years.
What's good about Mary is the fact that I can talk to her about anything and everything, and she makes me feel like I can relax and feel like myself. Which is a feeling, I've only been able to feel when I'm around family. I don't have to feel nervous around her, because she knows me well enough now that I know I don't have to worry about her judging me or thinking various thoughts about me. Because that's something I do tend to worry about, I get concerned or other think things about "oh what does this person think of me?" but I don't have to do that with Mary, she's one of these people who I can be natural around.
I think the reason as to why the friendship that I have with her has lasted for as long as it has is and is still going strong now is because we get on really well and give off good, friendly vibes, we have similar things in common and we laugh a lot. And granted, she may not be in my life all the time, but with love and kindness for your friends, she'll always be there in spirit. I know that sounds a bit cringy but I say it because I think it's true. We treat each other with the same kindness and respect and we look out for one another, as good friends do.
All of this started out as two people getting together to work on a play and getting to know each other. Now, in three months time, Mary will be getting married to Joel and I get to go to their wedding. My friend is getting married to a lovely guy and I couldn't be more happy and proud of her! xx